bas yunhi-------

humne -

shor machaya itna ki khamoshi chikhti reh gayi...
roshni kardi itni ki saanjh ka diya chhup gaya...
daude itna ki thakaan bhi humein sambhal na paayi...
bhid jamaayi itni ki dil ki khwaish akeli reh gayi...
haans diye itna ki aankhon ke aansoon bhi apni pehchan kho baithe...
bhatke itna galiyon mein ki manzil aankhon se ozhal ho gayi...
hum is gati se ji gaye ki hum khud hi kahi picche chhut gaye...

kyon jiye...kya jiye...kab jiye...
socha itna ki maut ki aahat bhi humein sunayi naa di...

To Be or Not to Be

To Be or Not to Be....
is that the question....is it really...
i am here and there's really no choice...
even if i choose not to be, i was in the being....
tricky...silly...but true..

well if i am to be, i am....i might as well be....
be who....again do i hv a choice...i am 'me'

so let me 'be me'
and thats the biggest fight....to be me....

to not to go over to becoming....but to discover the me and to be it.....
be it.....when the world judges...when the world forces....

yes albeit be perfect....but be the perfect me..i want to be.....
and perfect is as tangible as the name suggests it cant be....
so let me be the 'perfect me'.....

challenging my limits...myknowledge...my courage...
perhaps thats the perfect way to live a mortal life...immortally...

when u feel the chips are down and the world is a mess...
let it be.....u need only 'be me'...
u are company to urself...the master and slave of urself...

be the 'me' all your life, that when death knocks at your door,
u do not wish a second life...u do not wish to be a spirit immortal...

Thoughts on/from Apocalypto

I watched Happy Feet and Apocalypto back-to-back and so one was into that theatre mode.
The movie somehow did make u think as u went along with it. It was like a journey, many would be reluctant to take.

1) The violence i felt was all very relevant and i mean it was shown as it is. my friend [a guy] felt that it was too much violence..but i never felt so.....
all i felt was we have had a very easy life..after all a man is a animal and has to survive like all other animals and more often than not, his fate is to be eaten
and killed by another animal....and here, we go on living and killing mentally and emotionally in the modern jungle......
it wd not hurt to know defence techniques, to be strong physically and most imp, to be hurt physically, to know how to bear pain and fight ...bcoz it cd happen with anyone...these massacres...it hurts and u bleed n suffer...
2) Life is all about power, control and mass manipulation...since ancient times...till hitler and world wars and america............
the ways and techniques to do it differ in the ages..but it is the same..to take advantage of ignorance and show something spectacular to make ppl forget their pain...
3) Man can be triggered easily to be cruel and sadist and a killer, a murderer,....it doesnt take much to awaken the animal in u.....
there is no limit to the limits he can go to ...if given the power.............
4) The struggle doesnt end..i mean even after the hero has undergone so much ..........he will still have to hunt for food..protect his family from madmen.....
fight for his piece of land.....struggle as hard as u do...thr r no rewards for it here.......its a endless loop....
5) making the whole movie with subtitles...i liked this guts of the makers.....how much research..set-making...its simply awesome......
6) But still somewhr i felt, the story doesnt touch your heart...its a complicated, complex movie......but the essence though it comes out, it doesnt............
as far as i understood, among other things, it was the struggle of this man to become a man.......to fight all odds with his bravery, courage, knowledge of the jungle,
expertise, quickness and above all, love and compassion..and a never-say-die spirit........
well or maybe it wasnt...it was just another jungle story...this time he won..next time he wont...i dunno......
7) the baby being born...perhaps was the hollywood-ish part of the movie..dont know if u can actually give birth under water........anyways..... :-)

The Song, U and Me

The Song melts into my heart.
It speaks of the rain, the fresh air, the delight,
I revel in its tune, in sweetness, its beauty..
The heart is pure delight, pure bliss, all is forgotten..
My feet, ah, they are not mine anymore..
They are like the breeze around, swaying to your tune.

My body and soul are united in that moment, where, has sprung,
pure bliss, pure love.
I feel oneness with the being.
I wish to embrace it all; the music, the words, the melody, the breath.
Oh dear Song, you have given me that one moment, when,
The Universe is in Me and I am the Universe.
I am complete, I need No One,
I am me, I am Love.

And there you entered by stealth,
I can feel nothing but love for U.
The moment is so pure, my love, I cannot be prejudiced against U.

I see you as a man, my man,
Imbibing in you all that I love,Imbibing in me all that U love.
In that one moment I feel just U,Your presence, your eyes, your breath, your love.....

And then it came, swift and fast,
Stabbing into my heart like pin-pricked needles,.
I did not cry nor did I stop itHow could I ?

Can I think of love and not think of U,
Nor will I cry, that I will not,I will not allow myself that weakness,
U do not want me nor can I want you now.

My dear Song, what have U done !
U gave me so much happiness, it has opened up my wounds.
I have blurted out what my heart had accepted without letting me know..

Go away, go away, let me deny my heart this pure bliss,
So that it does not suffer this pain.

Let the inner happiness be unsaid,Lest it open up the pain within.
Go away, oh Song, deny me your gifts.
I do not deserve it.
Go to where there is love and acceptance and
May you reside there forever!

Tere Jahan Mein

tere jahan mein hum bas is ek tasveer se hain......

ek lamhe ka thehraav....

ek lamhe ka ehsaas....

ek katre bhar si pehchaan......
:-)

It is One of Those Days !!

It is one of those days......

When the world seems upside down....
When a dull mist hangs all around.....
And every beauty gets toned down....

It is one of those days...

When I miss a lot....
What I miss, why is miss,
This 'enlightenment' is the most a-miss.....

It is one of those days....

When I want to touch the stars
and ride on the clouds......
And the earth binds my feet steadfastly :-(

It is one of those days....

When I am not myself......
Or rather when I am myself.....
Or then I am the myself that I cannot be.............

It is one of those days.....

When I yearn for understanding....
When I search for a solution...
And neither can be found :-((

It is one of those days....
When I want to be happy........
pure and unadulterated........

Not from my senses or my heart......
But from my soul.......

It is one of those days....

Spent searching for my soul.....
For my unbound and limitless spirit.....
To pamper and feel it.....

It is one of those days.....
When I feel myself lost ..........
Searching for my true purpose..........

It is one of those days.....
When I cannot express myself enough..

If only I could not miss U........

If I could look at the rising sun and not look fwd to a day full of promises,
I could....

If I could sing the songs of the heart and not hear my heart's frantic beatings,
I could...
If I could dance to the rhythm of music and not listen to your feet tapping....
I could....

If I could feel the excitement of a challenge and not turn to U for confidence,
I could....
If I could feel the sweet smell of success, and not share it with U,
I could....

If I could breathe-in the beauty of the mountains and oceans, and not breathe your spirit in it,
I could.....
If I could run far away, and not treasure U in the deepest corner of my heart,
I could......

If I could look at the setting sun and not think of the night to come,
I could.....
If I could go to sleep and not dream of U,
I could.....

If I could be happy, simply and blissfully, and not want U the most in it,
I could....
If I could be living, and yet not search for its purpose,
I could....

If I could write this, and not feel the pain,
I could :-):-(
If I could just stop, If I could just stop......

Death

IS there anything that is alive anymore....
Is there anything that is alive anymore, anyplace.....

When a city adorned the sky with fireworks and
A child died in the dark shanty filthy hut....
Blinded by the light of the fireworks......

When a couple made love in the soft velvety cushions....
And a mother killed her un-born un-asked for child....
Across the street.......

When hundreds admired the beauty of a volcano....
That destroyed a small village in its midst...
And left a attractive shining pathway...

When a innocent girl submitted to a guy....
And her heart cried out "Foul"
And the sun, the wind, the ocean, looked by...

When U and I smile and make merry....
And deep inside weep to tears....
To the sound of music n laughter....

Where
Dreams are to rot,
Trust is to be breached,
Hope is to be smothered,
Love is to be forgotten.....

Is there anything that is alive anymore....
IS there anything that is alive anymore, anyplace........

Kya ho jaata hain....

kya ho jaata hain, ye kya ho jaata hain.....sidha rasta kyon left-right turn lene lagta hain..... :-(

jab hum dukhi hote hain, to jahan jaam chhalkaaye jaata hain...aur jab hum khush hote hain, to rooth kar mint chabata hain...

kya ho jaata hain, ye kya ho jaata hain....jaise horror movie ka bhoot johny lever nikala...jaise lovescene mein shakti kapoor hero nikala....

sab ulta-phulta, sab bikhra-bikhra...kya ho jaata hain, ye kya ho jaata hain...

rote hain to 'bore' kehlate hain, hanste hain to 'sore' kehlate hain......aaj hamari baaton se 'irritate' hota hain koi..hamari company mein 'desperate' hota hain koi....

ye kya hota hain, ye kya ho jaata hain....aaj to likhte hue bhi darr lagta hain, kya pata 'dear' bhi 'rascal' convert ho jaaye...do joote sar par hamare hi pad jaaye.....

koi baat nahi, phir bhi hum koshish karenge....aapke mood ko 'bright' aur 'upright' karenge....

aur jo ab aap na badale,to hum khali lake mein hi 'suicide' karenge...:-)))

Those Eyes !!

Those Eyes !! They would have pierced a thousand hearts !!

They are staring at me !!

Those Eyes !! They would have answered a thousand pleas !!

They are staring at me !!

Those Eyes !! Oh, how I would have answered them !!

But they are staring at me !!

Spirit Of Tasmania :-)

Its a beautiful world :-) * 1000times ...and i cd say on and on....its a beautiful world...
the sea is for me, in me, all around me. The smell of the salt in the air, the blowing wind, the chilled sensation of the water...its just amazing...so chilly and yet so wanted...
the sand slipping away slowly under your feet is like some luver being taken away, being consumed by their luv [water] and the sand cdnt do anything other than just ot flow away "with the flow" :-)
its just delicious...delirious....as to what water can do to you...probably this is how humans got "drunk" before they invented their "drugs". tell me which other drug could make me want to dance, sing,play so easily. A dance of "being", of myself, my 'beauty', my 'body'. It was a luv unto thyself, luv for thyself, that one is infused with. Feeling so, so aware of your body, of 'yourself'...not physically only, but mentally too. It strips you of your worries, fears, anxieties and most imp 'thoughts'.

The past and the future dissolve in the water and what is left is the 'present' in harmony with the 'omnipresent'. So much happiness, so much joy, such a light feeling.

I feel 'at-home', I feel free, I feel 'wanted'. In a silent smiling understanding way; the sea accepts me, gives me its mist, listens to my body, my heart and asks me to set free, to let go;
to be "human" ; a careless joyous spirit in journey to enternity !!