I am scared to have you dear

The 2 recent events that came to light of fathers raping their daughters for years on end prompted the below.
I am scared to have u dear
I am scared not for myself but for u,
U are vulnerable and innocent, susceptible and weak.

No longer do I gotta protect u only from strangers.
I have to protect you from my brothers, uncles, maybe, even from my father and husband.
No longer do I gotta hold your hand only in the supermarkets,
I have to hold it even more tighter in your own house, the cellar, the backyard.

No longer can I trust the man who wooed me, no longer can I trust the man who loved me.
His smile may be fake, his demeanor a façade, a monster of a man he very likely might be.
He might have loved me even though I was a stranger,
He might still very well hate u, who, is his own flesh and blood.
I am scared to have u dear
I am scared not for myself but for u,
U are vulnerable and innocent, susceptible and weak.

I want to show u the spring and the flowers, I want u to be as carefree as the wind.
But most of all, I want u to be loved by the man who calls himself your father.

I hope, I pray with all my heart that these simple wishes come true.
I hope that u never have to see the face of indifference or sorrow or cruelty.
And yet, yet, I am still scared to have u dear..